
Red bag full of medical supplies we were able to take in to Haiti. A small part, but so meaningful to those who benefit from it.
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Red bag full of medical supplies we were able to take in to Haiti. A small part, but so meaningful to those who benefit from it.
Learn of Discover The Journey’s mission in Haiti. Click here
Follow our journey from the ground live via twitter
As 2009 comes to a close, DTJ invites you to remember how this year began for us.
Heritier: What is peace? (written Jan, 2009 by Lindsay Branham, from DRC)
A whisper. A sigh. A cry. Echoing across a sea of vastness and space, held in place by a rising chorus of aching, honest pleas for peace, a drumbeat is heard. A child turns his head and with blood shot eyes, yells, “No Nkunda, no job.” He stumbles to the side of the room, his small frame swimming in an alcohol-induced sideways swagger. His father looks on, eyes quietly downcast, hands folded.
The steady thud of the drum continues. Rwassa Shamapfu, one of three chiefs of Sake, speaks woefully of the last 17 years, drenched in conflict, and his tragically strategically located village – the last bastion of defense before Goma, North Kivu’s provincial capital. Since August, he has fled five times with his family.
Sake is flanked by mountains. Facing away from Goma, on the right, the mountains are covered by Nkunda’s rebels, and to the left, the hills are covered by government soldiers. Occasionally a UN vehicle will drive by with the blue helmets. The chief questions what protection much less peace, if any, the UN has brought. He laughs. The UN mission to Congo, MONUC, has become laughable to villagers. War continues. They have not brought peace.
The town is chillingly desperate. Emptied numerous times over the last few months alone from renewed fighting, a temporary hesitant, fearful energy circulates amongst the black dust and rising kitchen fires. Nothing is stable. At any moment, Rwassa says, the rebels could begin firing. They are less than 2km away. Coping with that level of daily unexhaustable fear has created a culture of coping that is no more than mere, raw survival.
Heritier, intoxicated, accuses the muzungus of stealing the money rightfully his for demobilization. A former Mai-Mai child soldier, Heritier had joined the rebel group hoping for a better life than what had been offered him in Sake. At the time, other rebel groups were threateningly close, and if they captured Heriter he would be killed or forced to fight with a rebel group far from his home. If he stayed in Sake he could be killed. If he fled, he could be killed. So he joined the Mai-Mai to try to protect himself and the land of his ancestors, and still be able to see his family.
But within this fighting force, Heritier learned to kill. Demobilized and disarmed through the national DDR program, Heritier was not offered schooling or training after coming out of the Mai-Mai. He says the government has failed him. His father makes crude alcohol out of banana leaves and sends Heritier to town to sell it. Heritier gets drunk on it instead. Everyday, his father says, Heritier is drunk. “There is nothing else for him to do,” sighs his father, deep lines of surrender etched in his face. “I can’t feed him every day, I can’t pay for his school fees. Please, he needs work. He wants to work. He is strong.”
Heritier’s slim body buckles under the sway of the alcohol, his voice rising in embarrassing crescendos of anger and accusation. He keeps asking why I was wearing pants, and why two new people were here with me and where Jonathan, Wade and Brett were. His mind had a difficult time processing his surroundings. He finally buried his face in his hands. 15 years old.
The current peace process boasts much but offers little. Since 1992 there have been 11 peace conferences. War continues. There have been dozens of ceasefires, made and then broken. Promises made and then betrayed. Hope given and then rescinded.
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DTJ’s film, No More Tears, slated for release in 2010, follows Heritier’s story since this was written. To learn more, click here.
I do not dream. I sleep while I am awake.
I saw a man dead on the road yesterday. His body slumped, blood poured from his wound. Then they picked up dust, tossed it on the blood and threw the body in the back of the truck, and that was it. There wasn’t anymore.
I do know there is something that calls. Within. I resist. The thickness of the discomfort swirls around me and feels akin to suffocation. But maybe its a worthwhile death? The death of selfishness, of pride, of all that I resent in others but refuse to acknowledge in myself.
A UN plane roars overhead. Peace is not yet fully realized.
The warm glow of evening light illuminates the dust that swarms the air; reminders that rain has not come in months. Everything is covered in dust. Even when I eat, gentle crunches, thin layers of the ground tossed into the air that settle everywhere. My skin is always just a twinge off color. The color of the earth.
Yesterday I looked into the eyes of children who had become soldiers and then become children again in Kiwanja, eastern DRC. But children changed. Children scared. Children draped with a mantle of violence, of independence, of desire.
What do we think we can really accomplish here? Sustain here? With so much to learn and without the willingness to actually become that learner, we throw stones to the sky and create a lot of noise with very little actual impact. We must become like children. We must bend in a posture of learning.
And who measures impact anyway?
Maybe the definition includes more about relationship and less about numbers.
And that dead man on the side of the road continues to resurface in my mind. The gritty reality of death. Death and life and suffering and hope and pride and ambition and greed and outsiders and insiders and truth and lies. It all is mixed into a giant mosaic and chalked up as whatever people want to think about this place, however they want to cast it in their own way.
Congo to me today is much less the wild layered confusion that it once symbolized, and more the continual realization of my own limits and the true potential and ability of the Congolese themselves. What a brilliant, enduring people.
I type in the shadow of my own hands, the yellow light slanting and casting long dark shapes on the table. I breathe in the swirling French and Swahili around me, the sound of motos and trucks and cars crunching over the lava rock laden road behind me.
I do not see the destruction at the expense of the hope. I see both in some sort of balance. One day it leans much more biased one way or the other. Today it leans towards hope.
The suffering is still injustice. Of course it is. And I will expose it and fight it and love and be loved by the ones in the midst of it. I will never forget Safi and Amena. Amena is three years old. She was raped by a soldier. Her entire body is destroyed. When I met her on Saturday half her body was encased in a plaster cast. Her face could not smile. Safi, her 18 year-old mother, embodied courage and strength.
I am left without words when I behold humanity and the layers of complexity that are rife in people like Safi and Amena. Strength and pain, courage and devastation.
And as these two precious ones wait for help, hope for change, I am silenced.
So today I do not have answers, but just more questions. But the questions I have are rimmed with possibility and the progress I see quickens my breath.
I am so glad to be back in Goma.
“That was the defining moment of the journey. Of all the footsteps we had taken.”
I sat with Rose on her parent’s porch this morning, breathtaking views of Kampala landscaped behind her,
reflecting on Saturday’s twenty-eight mile walk. She encapsulated moments from that day with various adjectives. Fulfillment. Struggle. Memories. Joy. Laughter. Solidarity. But the one moment Rose couldn’t find a fitting word for was the moment her mother literally collapsed into her arms at Kiwoko Hospital. It wasn’t the actual feat of completing the entire walk that defined this moment above the rest, it was the incarnation of compassion through her mother’s journey. By walking the entire stretch Rose had walked twenty years ago she was saying, I want to feel what you felt. I want to know what you knew as a little girl. I want to see the world that led you to me.
This is true compassion.
So often in my western instincts I am tempted to mark a swell of emotion or a gesture of sympathy as a manifestation of compassion. But as I learn from Rose, and many others within this great cloud of witnesses, compassion is more than hurting for someone, it is hurting with them. The latin root “pati” and “cum” literally translates “to suffer with.” The defining moment of compassion in Rose’s journey was not the moment the Clarke’s adopted her into their family twenty years ago. It was the moment her mother traced twenty-eight miles of her footsteps with compassion.
Two years ago we met Moisha, a former Mayi-Mayi child soldier. And this is what he said. This summer DTJ returns to the DR Congo to continue telling the story of child soldiers. Despite efforts, we have not been able to find Moisha since this interview. We hope that changes this summer. Track with the journey at:
www.DiscoverTheJourney.org and on Twitter @followDTJ
I see you.
Together. Wanted. You belong.
Today we met a woman named Mabel in the Hope Ward of the International Hospital in Kampala. She spends everyday with people in pain. And she finds them in hospitals. HIV/AIDS patients, cancer patients, children in the hospice. Her desire? Just to love them. She says people talk about knowing Jesus, but the real Jesus is the one she loves, the one loving the dying, the ones no one cares for.
She calls herself a mother to the motherless. And she says this is her calling.
Today we also met Jacob. He was abused by his parents for years, beaten, broken, tied to a bed post and starved. Bones protruded from his skin, his eyes searched and scanned the ceiling in pain, his emaciated frame covered lightly by a thin blanket.
And Mabel stood next to him, in love.
Mabel found Jacob at Mulago Hospital alone – his father was arrested for child abuse and neglect, and there was no one to care for this dying child. Mabel, with joy, began to care for him.
She sees him and loves him.
Rose Nanyonga, who we follow this week as she embarks on a commemorative walk to raise awareness about child sacrifice and celebrate hope coming alive, second chances, and giving girls wings to fly, told us that when we look at another human being, our life should speak to them:
“I see you. It is good that you exist. It is good that you are in the world.”
Mabel, Joseph, and all of the children in this country who suffer:
It is good that you exist. It is good that you are in the world. We see you.
Mabel seeing Jacob. In love.
Wonder.
I am simply filled with wonder. Like a child holding tightly to her father’s hand, tumbling a few steps behind in pure wonder. Soaking up each new surrounding she is led into. Taking delight in each light footed step with so few expectations because of the consuming nature of what lies immediately before her eyes.
Wonder.
It’s almost comical that in my very journey to capture the stories of children, I find my emotions so deeply rooted in my childlike nature.
I hope only that I may capture that very wondrous spark, that is most apparently gifted to children, in the ones I have yet to meet. That perhaps because of my most recent state, I am enabled to identify the purity that still lies among ruins and hopelessness. That the child in me will find the child in them – the ones whose wondrous spark has been masked by ammunition.
Wonder.
May the child in me find the child in them so that through the eyegate of film all may find the wonder of Hope again.