THE UPDATE:
So many emotions come over me even as I begin to write. It has been five days since we were together, and still I can see their eyes, feel their touch, wait in the balance of moments and unknowns and swirling reactions that overwhelmed us that day. And somehow, I honestly know none of us will be the same.
Jonathan, Wade and Brett had come to Eastern DRC (Democratic Republic of Congo), nearly two weeks ago with the heart to tell the story of the raging conflict here through the eyes of a child. The DRC has seen an astronomical amount of death in the last 10 years, estimates stand at over 4 million deaths, most of them civilians, many women and children. A variety of rebel groups have wreaked havoc in the East through continuing to wage war, using methods of pillage, rape and plunder as their means of survival. In North Kivu, which borders northern Rwanda and southern Uganda, General Laurent Nkunda, a Tutsi still enraged from the Rwandan Genocide, claims his people, the Banyamulenge Tutsi, are being targeted. Nkunda and his troops bitterly fight against the Interhamwe, who are Hutu exiles responsible for the Rwandan genocide and fearful of retribution at home. So they continue to carry out murder and rape in Congo. Mai-Mai militias are created to protect the villages, then throw in the FARDC, the Congolese National Army, the FDLR, the Rwandan liberation forces, and you have a complete mess. No one is untouched. Everyone is at risk, and the ones who suffer the brunt of this unnecessary war in Congo are the women and children. There are thousands of child soldiers in Congo, each rebel faction recruits them and needs them. There are not enough adults left to fight. And so this tragic war is fought by children.

The four of us decided to go up to Goma, the main city in North Kivu, last weekend. We saw God’s voice and spirit leading us to North Kivu, and we went forward hoping and praying that God would bring us to a child to tell their story. And that He did. On the boat to Goma we met Francois, a sweet man working for an Oxfam off-shoot. We told him what we were doing. He told us he could help us. When we arrived in Goma we were moved by the way it felt. A volcano erupted in Goma five years ago, burying the city in lava. Goma looks strickingly post-apocalypse, with black lava rocks everywhere, buildings still half-buried, buses and cars sticking out from the lava at strange angles, and soot in the air.

The next morning Francois picked us up and said he had arranged for us to spend time with child soldiers. As we drove out to Sake, we stopped at an IDP camp, where 2,400 families live in horrid conditions after fleeing Nkunda’s troops. Many sleep on the lava rocks. We heard story after story of tragedy, and tiny tinges of hope. Many, however, were still thick in the grieving process over ones they had lost. One man’s three children were killed in front of his eyes as they fled. He stood before us with a mangled cast on his arm, bearing the shot wound he still carries. People were so eager to show us their wounds.



And then we met the ones who carry out that same fighting. We met children. We spent the rest of the day with 12 former child soldiers in an empty school-house on the edge of Sake. All were still angry, all visibly bore the marks of their time in the bush, all had stories that were simply beyond comprehension. All of the children had fought in the Mai-Mai militia, many beginning when they were 9 or 10 years-old, all had killed people, all knew how to fight, many were still enraged, and some had come out of the bush as recently as a few months ago. When we were in the car on the way to the school-house one kid shouted out that the government promised them things in the DDR process that they did not deliver (Disarmament, Demobilization and Reintegration, a government-sponsored attempt to bring the rebels out of the bush and into the FARDC). He said he is tired of false promise, and that he wants to join the FARDC and kill the man who told him that. Another kid said they used to eat people in the bush. Francois, our translator, laughed nervously.
The stories the children told us are hard to communicate. When the film is made you will be able to see their faces and hear from them yourself. The darkness surrounding their past deeds is thick, and hope for them, in all honesty, is hard to see. We were each pushed to believe in a God of love in a way we hadn’t been challenged to believe before.
Kevin (name changed to protect his identity), 13 years old, joined the Mai-Mai at least five years ago, after both of his parents had been killed. He was the witch doctor for his brigade, responsible for making medicine that he believed would protect them against the enemy. The medicine was made out of human organs. Kevin said that one time he was so angry that he never had a mother or father that he killed someone, removed their heart, cooked it on a fire, and ate it. He said the spirits told him to do that. He said he had killed 17 people. And he is 13 years old. He said the spirits still tell him things, like that he should just go back to the bush and die. He says he has nothing here. He has never been to school, he has no job, no money, no future. Kevin said that one time he went to a Catholic church, and says he thinks Jesus forgave him then. Pray for Kevin that the spirits of the enemy would be silenced and that this little boy would become Christ’s.
Matthew (name changed to protect his identity), 13 years old, joined the Mai-Mai voluntarily several years ago, after being abused so much at home. She thought she would have a better life in the Mai-Mai. Matthew fought on the front lines four times and killed many people. Now she is a prostitute because there is nothing else for her, she says. Her parents have rejected her because of what she has done, and she says that though she is not happy, she does not know what else to do. With pink lipstick and a sultry walk, our hearts cried out for Jesus to redeem His bride.
I spent a lot of time with Benjamin (name changed to protect his identity), 14 years old, who also joined the Mai-Mai voluntarily and said he killed 14 people. I could see so much anger in him. We would be sitting quietly and then some village kids would approach us and he would jump up and start swatting the kids with sticks, yelling at them. His eyes would darken with anger. And as I sat by him, I realized that the only thing that will change Benjamin, or Matthew or Kevin, is love, Jesus’ love. So with the love Jesus put in me for Benjamin, I started to love him. As the day went on, Benjamin responded so much to my affection. Before long he would not leave my side, was always holding my hand and looking up into my face with these huge eyes. All I could think about was that this was a CHILD sitting before me, and yet he was also a fighter. I asked him if he believed in Jesus and he said of course, that he doesn’t know what he would do without Jesus’ grace, and that he knows it has to be huge if it is big enough for him and the things he has done. We painted rocks with the kids and Benjamin painted “Je t’aime” on a rock for me, which means I love you. On the way to lunch Benjamin and I sat next to each other, hand-in-hand, with my other arm around his shoulder, and tears welled up in my eyes. Love is more powerful than evil. The love I felt from him melted my heart. I am convinced that love can change these kids. Jesus’ love can redeem. Heal. Restore. Change. And make new, anything, even a child who has killed and whose own spirit, in many ways, has been killed.
Jonathan had a similar experience with Kevin. Jonathan poured love onto this little boy and also saw such a response to it. They are children. And they need love. By lunch, the kids were laughing instead of scowling, and hearts had opened instead of being chained shut. These kids are the rejected of the rejected in their community. No one wants anything to do with them. And there is nothing for them. No World Vision rehabilitation center, no ministries fighting for them. No one. Wade, Jonathan, Brett and I could only turn to the One who can do all things, and ask, beg and plead, for His mercy to rest and find a home in these children’s lives.
Our hearts are broken for these children. They have so much potential and are right on the edge, we believe. Many will re-join the Mai-Mai or another rebel group if nothing else is offered to them, statistics show. That is the only life they know.
Please, sweet Jesus, intervene in their lives so that the enemy will not win. Show them your love, your forgiveness, your grace. Transform them. Make all things new in them. Turn their sins to snow as you have done for us. Send your servants to protect them, fight for them, comfort them. These are your children, Jesus, and yet the darkness and hardness of death and sin has tried so hard to rob them of life. God, you and you alone can save them. Come quickly, Lord Jesus. Do not delay. Send forth your angels, legions of angels, to be by their side. At night when they are scared, comfort them and quell their fears. When they are rejected by others, open your arms to them in love. When they are tempted to go back and fight, prevent them, at all costs, dear Lord. Give them a heart of love instead of hate, forgiveness instead of anger, love instead of bitterness. Wash away their memories of deeds done in darkness, and shower them with your Spirit of LIGHT. God, come quickly. Our hearts feel the weight of your sorrow, but we cannot even begin to truly understand. Give us, your church, vision and wisdom, compassion and hearts of intercession for these beautiful children. They are yours. We believe it. And we love you. In Jesus Name, Amen.
Please join with us. In prayer. In love. In urgency.
Jonathan, Wade, Brett and Lindsay
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